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Jan 12
011112: One more month ‘til my birthday! I’m slowly starting to creep back into old habits - bad habits. I need to get active more often and start taking real good care of myself. I only had one class today and I watched everything I ate today. I’m currently fighting the urge to grab more jello from the fridge. When I went grocery shopping yesterday, there weren’t anymore peaches and strawberry jello cups, so I figured I could just make it myself - and I did! Awesome!  But seriously, I think it’s time to get serious about my weight. Even though I see nothing wrong with myself, the BMI scale says otherwise and I guess I just have to learn to try and live day by day. I think I get too far ahead of myself thinking about marriage and kids and what not… But the truth is, how am I ever going to reach my dreams if I can’t even get through school right now? School should be my main focus and from now on, it is. And if I ever want kids, I should at least be healthy right? It’s just hard to balance and adjust back to school and not being able to see Dave everyday - but what can I do right? Once he’s gone to bootcamp, it’ll be worse. I hate admitting how much I miss him, because it’s just like saying I can’t be without him. But I have to be independent and sacrifices have to be made. I miss him, so much. It’s only been 2 days, and I’m going to see him tomorrow… I guess it’s hard because I want to spend so much time with him before he leaves. I guess it’s cause it’s hard to face the fact that this is where it’ll all begin. Where his presence will be an on and off switch that’s all determined through our government and the military. Before I get overly emotional, it’s time for me to go to sleep. Good night. XOXO

011112: One more month ‘til my birthday!

I’m slowly starting to creep back into old habits - bad habits. I need to get active more often and start taking real good care of myself. I only had one class today and I watched everything I ate today. I’m currently fighting the urge to grab more jello from the fridge.

When I went grocery shopping yesterday, there weren’t anymore peaches and strawberry jello cups, so I figured I could just make it myself - and I did! Awesome! 

But seriously, I think it’s time to get serious about my weight. Even though I see nothing wrong with myself, the BMI scale says otherwise and I guess I just have to learn to try and live day by day. I think I get too far ahead of myself thinking about marriage and kids and what not… But the truth is, how am I ever going to reach my dreams if I can’t even get through school right now? School should be my main focus and from now on, it is. And if I ever want kids, I should at least be healthy right? It’s just hard to balance and adjust back to school and not being able to see Dave everyday - but what can I do right? Once he’s gone to bootcamp, it’ll be worse.

I hate admitting how much I miss him, because it’s just like saying I can’t be without him. But I have to be independent and sacrifices have to be made. I miss him, so much. It’s only been 2 days, and I’m going to see him tomorrow… I guess it’s hard because I want to spend so much time with him before he leaves. I guess it’s cause it’s hard to face the fact that this is where it’ll all begin. Where his presence will be an on and off switch that’s all determined through our government and the military.

Before I get overly emotional, it’s time for me to go to sleep.

Good night.

XOXO

Posted 1 month ago